Day 10 of 21 Free to Love meditation

Your Giving Heart

 TODAY, I tried a different approach to my meditation. For the past few days I've battled with the negativity that I have with my heart.

Today I became a lot more receptive to what I want to accomplish by the end of these 21 days. I knew going into this that I may face some challenges. Dealing with my heart is a challenge for me. Especially after my very loud protest against LOVE and any dealings of my heart. 

TODAY's lesson teaches us about giving from the heart. When giving from the heart the act (rather it's big or small) is a freeing moment for both you and the receiver. What we have to do is learn how to embrace our act(s) of being the giver. Once we have completed our daily task of giving from the heart (it can be a smile, a good morning to a stranger, or a hug) our heart grows bigger and stronger.

BOTTOM LINE:

TODAY I may fear the use of my heart, but I'm willing to go over and beyond these hurdles of being hurt in order to become more free in giving from my heart.

"Today and every day I find simple ways to give to everyone I meet." (today's meditation)

From my heart 2 yours,

Queen 2 Be

Day 9 of 21 Free to Love meditation

Your Intuitive Heart

I use to be intuitive when I was younger but it made me feel some kind of way once I became older and more knowledgeable about life.

I use to feel what others were feeling, I use to be able to some how know about a situation without having any real knowledgeable about the situation.

Most of the time it was more about the people around me more than myself. I can just simply sitting in my car and know what the other person is feeling in another car.

BOTTOM LINE:

 

I think in this meditation I will have to dig very deep to open up my intuitive heart. First I need to find my heart. I need to trust it fully and completely in order to be obedient to it's intuitive ways. I just know that in the past my heart has led me to places unknown and scary. I became broken and wounded because I followed what I thought was the intuition of my heart. 

 

SO as I by the end of this week....

 

I will open myself up to my heart and follow the direction it leads me...

 

 

 "More and more I learn to trust the intuition of my heart." (today's meditation but...shew!)

 

 

Yours openly,

 

Queen 2 Be 

Day 8 of 21 Free to Love meditation

                                          Your Heart Center

 "The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed."
—Jiddu Krishnamurti

  

For me this is my heart from the time I was born. Slightly broken, patched up and half way bandaged up. I mean my mother showed me (and is showing me) all the love that a heart can stand. My father (although absent most of my life) says he love me. I have friends and family that says they love me BUT....I never felt the personal love from myself. Although my heart is my center, it never seem to stay in place. I think mainly because I have a BIG heart. My heart has this major Kumba Ya My Lord complex. My heart has deceived me numerous times because of it. My heart has made decisions that seem to exploit this weakness I have for being loved, to have love, or showing love to the world.

BUT WAIT.........it gets worst....

                                                              

The older I've became the more my heart became broken.....until finally....it became shattered into pieces. What was the cause? Life....people.....ME. I lived by my heart to the fullest. When I give someone my heart I give it fully. I blame myself for that though...I've opened myself up freely, regardless of how many times I've been hurt (sometimes over and over again by the same people)....and before you knew it my heart was dropped, shattered into tiny little pieces..... I was left vulnerable, cracked, broken....My heart hurt!  

    



                                                      

Which then landed me here......literally I would say this and mean it with every fiber of my being. THIS feeling is almost at a point of no return. The bitterness that grows inside is a dreadful feeling. I am almost in tears because this felt so real to me. I vowed that I would never deal with love (outside of family and few close friends) ever again. It felt ugly....I could no longer believe in this thing called love. I did not feel my heart anymore. I could not feel period.....I in fact felt as though I had no heart at all....I was completely numb.

 BOTTOM LINE:

 

  

I knew the way I was feeling was not healthy.....I figured that my life was going to be stagnate....especially if I would shut down my heart. In fact I was very stagnate, the more I lingered in the way I was feeling the worse my life seemed to be. The ones that hurt me/broken my heart are moving on with their lives....they were in fact doing something that I should of been doing....LIVING...with the fullness of their heart. So it is time for me to let go and let God....accept my life as is but LIVE more from the heart....But first....I need to find my heart again....I must return it to it's rightful place...in the center.....This will help me become a more balanced human being....and when you are balanced, you are more receptive to love not just from people but for me...love from myself....

"My heart center is open and receptive to love." (today's meditation)

Openly loving, (with hesitation but willing)

Queen 2 Be

Day 7 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"Today I commit to giving and receiving love in its full power and glory."

  
Freedom to Feel Again:

Ummmm.....well....

I'm a little more stubborn than I thought....okay NO...I know how stubborn I am. 

This particular one is something I'm not ready for. I'm grateful for the lesson that it is showing me. But to be honest...I don't want to feel anything right now. For now the numbness is what I want. 

Okay, kind of harsh...let me back up. Like I told a friend of mine today, I'm willing to deal with everything in my life with exception of one part. I do NOT want to deal with the intimate level of my feelings. I'm afraid and that's that....

However this meditation is not a total lost. I am becoming more free to have love and feelings for myself. Before I felt nothing at all but now...I feel love for myself and it's okay to be that way.

At one point I've allowed my feelings to be open wide for all of those around me. Except for myself....I hated what and who I've become. I hated the fact that I was just a weakling .... strong for others but not for myself. I couldn't take up for myself but I could for others.

UNTIL.....

I got my feelings hurt really really bad....my emotions for others actually became my downfall to the point of vulnerability. Which left me open to be sucker punch and blinded by my feelings.  In order to  bounce back from such a devastating moment of my life....I shut down all of my feelings....for me....it was the safest way to live.

Bottom line:

I am slowly but surely opening up myself to feel again. I won't lie and say this is easy and I can concur this without a problem buuuuuuuuut....this one folks is a tough one. This may be a daily process until I am feeling again....This meditation has not gone in vain....it's just right now....I cant....

"Today I commit to giving and receiving love in its full power and glory." (today's meditation but a daily movement for me until I really get it)

Just pray for me


Queen 2 Be

 

Day 6 of 21 Free to Love meditation

              Okay so yes I skipped a day in blogging but not in the meditation.

 

Rituals of Release:

I'm somewhat of a pack rat when it comes to certain items. I love to collect certain things but I never find a place to display or keep them. I'd noticed that even more when I had to make a sudden move from Indy. I had soooooo much stuff that I was holding on to. I'm a sentimental person and things that people would throw away, I would most likely keep. Especially if it was something I've done with a special person or my children. I've kept letters, drawings, ticket and concert stubs....just stuff.

While I was preparing for my move, I tried my best to hold tight to some very important keepsakes (at least they were very important to me). BUT the way I had to travel from Indy to DE was not suited for a big move. So I packed as much as I could (over 20 something years worth) into 1 large suitcase, 2 medium sized suitcases, an average sized box, an oversized purse, and a huge tote. AND I was traveling alone on the train. 

Literally I was the bag lady that Erykah Badu was singing about:

Bag lady you gone hurt your back
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold on to
Is you, is you, is you

Bottom line:

Bag lady
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
Ooh, ooh
Girl you don't need it
I betcha love can make it better

I had to let go of some things that I thought were important. However letting go/releasing what is the norm is okay when life offers you daily newness. It became a ritual/ a habit to hold on and do things that became like second nature. It didn't matter if it was good or bad. So now my new ritual is just that.....walking in the newness of life. In doing so, it will leave me open to greater possibilities of LIVING!

 

So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh

"I am pure existence, pure consciousness, pure love." (yesterday's meditation)

 

Peace and blessings,

Queen 2 Be 

Day 5 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"Love is what I am, what I give, and what I receive."

Freedom to Heal:

I knew that this process was coming sooner or later.

I'm going straight to it on this one.....

I believe in God....I believe that by Jesus stripes I am healed.

That's the spiritual side of me...the inner man that speaks and walks by faith.

Unfortunately the human side of me found it more convenient to stay hurt. Why? because it was what I was use to feeling, what I thought how my life is suppose to be.


Well not anymore....I've claimed my healing right before I started this meditation. This portion of the meditation is just a confirmation to me saying that I'm on the right path. Actually...this is taking me into a more deeper realm of my complete healing. I thought at one point that I was beyond repair.

BUT I AM FREE.....

I AM HEALED

I've found the love within me to allow my soul/my spirit to be free....


Free from hurt, pain, past wounds, lost, and other hindrances.....


In this healing I am more open to possibilities of LIVING.....


"Love is what I am, what I give, and what I receive." (today's meditation)

Healed and still healing,

Queen 2 BE

Day 4 of 21 Free to Love meditation (sorry so late)

You have the capacity to change the plotline of your life, even if you've been acting from the same script since before you can remember."
—David Simon

Freedom from old tapes:

I must admit, at times I tend to stick to what I know. However I am spontaneous enough to do things outside of the norm....basically go off script from time to time. 

I've followed the same script all my life, with some slight variations from time to time. Doing this my life became/has been mundane and predictable. Deep down however I am extremely adventurous and wild and I will throw caution to the wind without a problem. 

Although it sounds like a fun life, it has caused me some painful and hurtful experiences. So in order to not go through any issues I decide to just stick to the script.....it's safer that way.

I now am afraid to live....not only just to live but to live on my terms, in my way, to produce the greatest masterpiece ever!

Bottom line:

I need to be free to be the true me.....it's that simple....or is it?

I think we allow too many outside influences (i.e. friends, jobs, family) determine what our next line is going to be. In order to be free we must break away from what has been the norm for us and make the necessary changes to fit our living.

Besides.....with God as the director.....you can never fail....

So as I step into character of self I must remember to be the best at living by knowing that I have the power to change my life.....one line at a time....

"I am loved, lovable and loving." (today's meditation)

Happy Journey,

Queen 2 be

 

 

Day 3 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"Life is too short to carry the burden of a heavy heart. It does not serve you or anyone else. Free yourself through the power of forgiveness and compassion."
- David Simon

Freedom to forgive....

I must say this meditation was some what an easy one for me. Until.....

See, I've always been willing to forgive people in my life. Sometimes I think a little too easy. Without going through the list of wrongs that people has done that required forgiveness....I will just tell you ONE thing that I have a problem forgiving.

I have THE hardest problem forgiving MYSELF!!

I hate to disappoint people or let people down. When I do I'm so hard on myself that it is sickening. I've done wrong in my life that I wish I can undo but can't. So since I can't undo them, I waddle in not forgiving myself, which turns into self-hatered and low self esteem. So somehow in this meditation I have to free myself from....well myself.

I need to take ownership of what was done was done and forgive myself. I believe this will lead me into a greater walk in loving myself fully and whole heartedly....and then I have to be compassionate with myself so I can feel more secure in my freedom of forgiveness. 

So as I grasp hold of today's meditation...i am applying this as a triple ointment to get rid of the infected part of me that won't or can't forgive myself. I know I need to do so in order to properly heal.

The longer I don't forgive myself, the longer it will take me to reach my full potential in living....

MY MISSION:

In order to find freedom to forgive, I must do it with compassion and love.
I love myself enough to forgive myself. 

I AM FORGIVEN! 

"I forgive; I release; I let go of anything and anyone that keeps me from my highest good." (today's meditation)

Peace and Blessings,

Queen 2 Be

  

Day 2 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"The past is over; I live blissfully loving in the present."

*SIGH*

Where do I begin with this one...

My past is what gets me in the emotional bind that hinders my life. In my meditation today a revelation came to me about why I hold on to my past when I know that its over.

Revelation:

I grew up the only child at home. Being the only child can be a very lonely experience no matter how many friends you may have. Growing up I've always had a slew of friends. However when it was time to go home I was alone and often time sad because I had no one to keep me company. To this day I still have some of those same friends in my life. I even still have ex-boyfriends that I keep in touch with from time to time. Once you were my friend I kept you as a part of my life just as the very breath I take today. True it might not be as close as it was before but these people are still present.

When I think of letting go of something (especially my past) I feel like I'm on the losing end. I have allowed myself to become comfortable in the past that I feel that I can't live without it tagging along into my present/future. It doesn't matter if it was a good or bad experience with that person, place or thing. My only connection to life for me is my past. 

This mediation took a toll on my psyche. Not only am I'm suppose to let go of something that I think defines who I am but to live in love of my present. 

I know it's not as crucial as it sounds but my present, my now is at a point of mending but not completely healed. I have more faith in my past than I do what is presently known as my life. 

Evolution:

I'm tired of living a stagnate life. Its like I'm sitting still watching the world evolve around me in slow motion. All the while I'm questioning myself and the energy of this world as to why am I stuck when everyone else is moving on? 

Answer: I NEED TO LET GO!

Oooooooh...yeah...that's right. The past is over....KEEP IT MOVING...you have living to do but not for the past or for the future BUT for the NOW! not only am I suppose to LIVE but to LOVE my living to the fullest at this moment! DING DING DING!!  

Yes I know none of this is rocket science but I'm going to treat it as if it's a pot of Gold at the end of MY rainbow. 

Past consider yourself as history....I AM LETTING YOU GO...I will only keep what is good and leave the things that does not serve me any purpose not only in my life but IN MY LIVING OF THE NOW!!

SHEW!! 

"The past is over; I live blissfully loving in the present." (today's meditation)

Smooches!

Queen 2 Be  

   

Day 1 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"I am ready to view my life through the eyes of love."

When I decided to do Deepak Chopra's 21 day of meditation, I figured that I will check this out since I've been talking about getting into meditation anyways. Going in with a made up mind I registered myself to be apart of this session of meditation. I became excited and anxious to see what this session of meditation would be. The topic came as a huge surprise "Free to Love"....wow talk about a ton of bricks on top of another ton of bricks.

Love and I got history:

I couldn't do nothing but laugh when I saw it was talking about love. The one thing that I am trying to avoid like using the port-o-potty at any event...love is the last thing I said that I was going to deal with in my life. SIKE!! I guess the ha ha is on me. Life has a way to MAKE you deal with things that YOU may feel that you are not prepared for but someone higher than we are can say different. 

I've been burnt, hurt, destroy and emptied by what I "thought" was love. That even includes self-love. I walk around so numb to that emotion because honestly, I'm afraid of it. I'm beyond afraid...it's more like terrified to no end! I fear it so badly that it brings me to tears...

But now.......I guess it is time to deal with this thing...to conquer...to just be...love 

 ANYWAYS.....

I've decided to blog my progress during this meditation. I'm willing to share in my journey in hopes to help myself as well as others (or whoever reads it) to be free to Love...

 

"I am ready to view my life through the eyes of love." (today's meditation)

Peace and Blessings,
Queen 2 B 

 

Of course this is my life...

The more I live the more of a mess I'm creating with my life...I mean what do I expect? I'm being punished by God...I know I am...I have singled handly place myself in a living hell...willing and unwillingly....knowingly and unknowingly...and I can only find fault in self... There has been some things that I've done throughout my life that wasn't right...I've gone to God and asked for forgiveness...God has forgiving me but now I'm in the punishment stage...so I except and exspected it to be harsh... I'm finding each day to be less worthy to live....but that's the enemy talking...and I won't succumb to its taunts and mental games...I don't want to revert to where I was 2 years ago...I have a fight in me to keep pushing until I see daylight once more...but it seems to be more and more of struggle to keep up the fight... I only have myself to blame though...I have struggles and issues like everybody else but I don't deal with them like everybody else...the hardest part is I don't have anyone to talk to anymore...at least anyone who is objective like Irene...maaaaan do I miss her....we were making such good progress..sigh... I swear I hate where I am right now...this space not the place even though this place has brought my life to seclusion..which I guess that's a safe place for all that is involved...but I'm feeling so lost with no way to stand no where to turn...nothing... I'm tired of crying myself to sleep...I'm tired of the unhealthy thoughts and negativity....but once again I believe this is my just awards because I had done wrong....and this is my life...punished by the law of God.... Restless 4 life...

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wide awake at 3:24 a.m.

I'm sitting on my porch and already hearing the morning birds catching their worms. Its calm right now, with the exception of the Jamaican lady fussing at her 14 yrs. old son who just walked in the door...she says to me "Me sorry that I'm about to keep you up" I said why? And then here he comes walking around the corner and she says in a calm voice "Come here little boy" he walks kind of slow but in a pace that he knew he better hurry up....all I can do is shake my head because she believes in BEATINGS...not whoopings....Oh well you live and you learn.... Which in some ways I find that ironic...see I feel like I've been beat by life and I'm still tied to the whipping post. That's probably why I'm sitting on the porch at now 3:31 in the a.m. at any rate although I'm still tied to the whipping post I feel a chance of freedom coming my way...life (the masta) wants me to stay alive for some reason so its only beating me enough to make me unconscious for a few and then once I awake...it wants me to say that my name is something else...but I being the stubborn one keeps saying my name is Queen... I am a ruler of many and I will reign forever....but the masta (life) says well if want to wear the title of a Queen then let me adjust your crown...and more whippings follow...sigh... Anyways it is now 3:38 in the a.m. I'm trying to regain my composure from this brokeness that I allow to come into my life...this is no way to live and I'm sick of it...I'm tired of crying and being angry and being hurt...sometimes I'm just tired of just being...staying prayed up daily the fight still lingers in my hollow soul...but I'm still fighting...and that my friends I will do until the day I die....whether it will be while I'm still tied to the whipping tree or graciously sitting on my throne in my Queendom..... Its 3:44 in the a.m. And I'm still WIDE AWAKE Queen 2 B

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At this moment...

I'm suicidal...for the past few days I have been thinking very wrong...and with each day it seems to becoming increasingly worst. Today I made it to the bottom and can't seem to crawl out....I had so many thoughts of ways to cut or hurt myself.

I've been in serious prayer and pleading with God to fix me.

I'm still here so I guess that's a start....

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The Road

Loneliness seem to be the road I must travel. I grew up being the only child. I use to beg the other kids to play with me. I would bring out all the toys I could so the kids would come to my yard to play. That was the beginning of my life of having friends.

After that I was always surrounded by people. But it wasn't that I offered anything but my friendship. Having to move practically every year...never staying more than 2 yrs. at one place...I had mastered the art of making friends....until now.

I went to about 15 different schools growing up. 10 of them were from Kindergarden to 8th grade. We lived on just about every side of Indianapolis and some in between. So I had to do some major friend making if I didn't want to be alone.

Moving forward to the present....not only have I moved hundred of miles away from familiarity, friends, love ones...co-workers....I now am alone with no friends. Making friends have not been as easy as it was from when I was young. It could be because I've grown to be selective, maybe because I'm not as approachable as I use to be.

Since I've been here in a different state I said that I was going to be alone. I spoke it into existence and now I must live it. So this is what I get...opening my big mouth because I got hurt...out of anger I forbid anything emotionally related...including love....

So this is my path to the end.....and I must live it accordingly.

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Stress Cardiomyopathy

This my friends is the medical term for a Broken Heart Syndrome...

I knew that there was such a disease, I've heard of it and its interesting that many people have fallen ill (had strokes) and/or actually died. See the stress of losing someone rather it be in death or some traumatic incident causes people to have a stroke. Also the chemical/adrenaline from the brain during the stressful moment weakens the heart.

Why am I pushing all of this medical shit...? Because I know how I'm going to die....from a Broken heart....

I can't seem to move past the brokeness in my life. My heart is no longer fit to function. It has became weak...

So now I know how I'm goin to die....but the main question now is when....?

How soon?

Or will this be a life long way of living?

Broken Hearted......

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my thoughts of the day

I wonder how my life will end...although for the most part I'm living in the beginning of what seems to be a rebirth...I still think often of death.. maybe because I have a death sentence set for me.

I sometimes forget about my illness until..I get those sharp pains in my head or a headache that last for days. Which then I begin to become fearful but welcoming at the same time. 

Thought #2
(I guess I have more thoughts)
I am finding that I'm not as focused as I use to be. These past few weeks in school has been a bear! My concentration level is diminishing each week I get closer to the end. Its like if I read one more thing I'm going to scream (with the exception of Facebook status and Twitter) I find myself bored beyond measures!

Thought #3
I need some excitement in my lonely life. I am lonely most of the time and I only text one person on a consistent basis and even now that's starting to slow down...

What's weird about all of this is the fact that I prefer to be alone. In fact I know I don't want anyone else in my life...ever! Being a certain age makes me really not be bothered with anyone else. I have a plethora of friends even though they are not near....I have friends. But starting a friendship is difficult and a challenge.

Everybody is not on the same page let alone same level of where I am or where I'm trying to be. So I'm extremely cautious about anyone who wants to start a friendship...sigh

Thought #4
I'm still not over it and I don't think I ever will.

Conclusion
I have more thoughts but these are the only ones I'm willing to share...

Sincerely
Queen 2 be

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.........Just.......

The thing about being open is that I often time feel vulnerable. I then go to retreat mode, reverting to the numbness that I often feel on a day to day basis. I numb myself because when I do feel..... it hurts. Its like I can never get a break from this feeling of hopelessness. I don't feel this way on purpose, I don't ask for pity or try and have pity parties. It's like a natural way to feel for me, as if I'm meant to live in pain and meant to suffer.

I want to live but in order for me to live I have to be superficial about who and what I am. I feel that I'm just a fake...I have pushed and pushed myself on a daily basis to feel anything but hurt....however at the end of the day I am back in pain. Not physically but emotionally, mentally. Some times I guess you can say it's physical too because my body some times aches all day and I'm constantly seeking some type of healing to get over it.

I'm tired, I want to feel good again, I want to feel hope....the jury is still out on feeling love but maybe some day that too will come back to this numb heart of mine.

Death is near, I feel it breathing down my neck some times. I welcome it like I've waited all my life for it...often times with open arms. Part of me don't want it...part of me want to see all my children grow and see more grandchildren, see if I will ever find peace.....but like I've said I'm tired, I'm weary and .....


Charging it all to the game,

Queen 2 B

My Blogging Rights

So today I've decided to blog some thoughts...I will not be posting the link because well I don't feel like it. I'm running on raw emotions today...it could be either a lack of sleep or hell I just feel what I feel and don't feel like masking it today. I'm sure once released that I will crawl back under the rock, in the shell that I tend to hide in...

So if you follow me on my blog...which I only have 2 followers...lol...I hope you ladies don't mind me being open today....I have to put it down somewhere....I be damn if I put these things on FB and I have a emo twitter that no one follows but myself...(yeah I am following my own emo twitter)...but these emotions are full because I've left them bottled up for some time now....and I'm feeling some kind of way today....

I'm tired of having to shut myself down so I won't offend or try and hold on to friendships and other things...I guess tho...it's whatever....


Reality fuckin bites,

Queen 2 B

Nothing even matter...

I mean when it does what will it cost you? The expense is all inclusive no matter the outcome....and that is why I'm broke...

Out of pocket...
Queen 2 B

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Its what i feel so sue me....i really dont care...

Love is a magic trick...filled with smoking mirrors, a magician and his assistant...it sticks you in a box and cuts you in half or you get put in the box that makes you disappear...so why do people want to be a part of something like that? Because the illusion of it all wows us...

That is all..
Queen 2 B

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Time heals all wounds.....

An American proverb states "Time heals all wounds". However I like the quote stated by Rose Kennedy that says:

"It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone." 

Over this past year, I have been wounded to the point that I am just a walking scar tissue. I have transcended into one big wound that is covered by layers of scar tissue, even though the pain has lessen, the pain has not gone away. My mind is protecting my sanity (or the lack there of) but the wound is still present.

As each day goes by, I can say I no longer cry myself to sleep even though there are moments when tears are still shed. Many of us have suffered so much sorrow in our lives. Each of us has a certain endurance to the same pain as the next person. During my time of being wounded, I've heard numerous of times...."Girl, just get over it", "I don't know why you are still tripping over that". Well as they say one man's junk is another man's treasure. The same as with wounds and pain. You may have dealt with the same kind of wound/injury but your pain level may not been as high as mine or vice versa. 

When someone is going through such hurt we first have to be understanding. Then from that point be the shoulder that they need. It's okay to empathize with people who are hurting....AND YES we do not wish for anyone to dwell in that pain but the questions is: How much time do we give them to do so? 

I say if you truly care/love the person who is going through this pain....give them all the time they need. Sure we may get tired of hearing the same ole thang, same ole story, or same ole cries. BUT we need to become more creative and try to get them to see life as they live it. In this fast paced world we tend to give people a 2 second listen and then we are off running on to the next thing. 

I think that our society has became very insensitive to how things effect others. A lot of times its because we don't deal with things the same as others do.......People's life history could be full of hurt and disappointments. There are some of us who have encountered such issues on an ongoing basis, never receiving a break.....and with each blow it gets harder and harder to get back up. 

So what am I trying to say?

I'm saying that we need to work on how to be more understanding to others. Everybody IS NOT the same. Yeah you might find a majority that may be just like you but that still does not make up for people/society as a whole. I'm not asking you to cater but to be a better help to the ones you care/love. Stop adding fuel to a fire that's already lit and ready to devour. Instead be human enough to at least help....

So what says you? 

Be a help?

Or a hindrance?

Just think......

Love you all,

Queen 2 B