Day 2 of 21 Free to Love meditation

"The past is over; I live blissfully loving in the present."

*SIGH*

Where do I begin with this one...

My past is what gets me in the emotional bind that hinders my life. In my meditation today a revelation came to me about why I hold on to my past when I know that its over.

Revelation:

I grew up the only child at home. Being the only child can be a very lonely experience no matter how many friends you may have. Growing up I've always had a slew of friends. However when it was time to go home I was alone and often time sad because I had no one to keep me company. To this day I still have some of those same friends in my life. I even still have ex-boyfriends that I keep in touch with from time to time. Once you were my friend I kept you as a part of my life just as the very breath I take today. True it might not be as close as it was before but these people are still present.

When I think of letting go of something (especially my past) I feel like I'm on the losing end. I have allowed myself to become comfortable in the past that I feel that I can't live without it tagging along into my present/future. It doesn't matter if it was a good or bad experience with that person, place or thing. My only connection to life for me is my past. 

This mediation took a toll on my psyche. Not only am I'm suppose to let go of something that I think defines who I am but to live in love of my present. 

I know it's not as crucial as it sounds but my present, my now is at a point of mending but not completely healed. I have more faith in my past than I do what is presently known as my life. 

Evolution:

I'm tired of living a stagnate life. Its like I'm sitting still watching the world evolve around me in slow motion. All the while I'm questioning myself and the energy of this world as to why am I stuck when everyone else is moving on? 

Answer: I NEED TO LET GO!

Oooooooh...yeah...that's right. The past is over....KEEP IT MOVING...you have living to do but not for the past or for the future BUT for the NOW! not only am I suppose to LIVE but to LOVE my living to the fullest at this moment! DING DING DING!!  

Yes I know none of this is rocket science but I'm going to treat it as if it's a pot of Gold at the end of MY rainbow. 

Past consider yourself as history....I AM LETTING YOU GO...I will only keep what is good and leave the things that does not serve me any purpose not only in my life but IN MY LIVING OF THE NOW!!

SHEW!! 

"The past is over; I live blissfully loving in the present." (today's meditation)

Smooches!

Queen 2 Be